I mean I’ve had a good life and although I’ve had some bad things have happened like my parents dying and that sort of thing but for the most part I’ve had a very happy life and I’m grateful for it. And the man said three score years and ten and I’ve had six years bonus. So all we can all ask for is an easy get out at the end of the day. I would very much like if I was sensible enough if I could say to my doctor or consultant, ‘Switch me off and he was able to do it because you wouldn’t let a dog live the way some people do and when you hear these people say it’s not ethical and one thing and another, usually they haven’t got MND and I think that that should be everybody’s basic right to say, ‘I’ve had enough. I’m, I’m very strong on that. Everybody wouldn’t agree but I think if those who desire that then it should be available.

Have you ever thought yourself about the causes?

I’ve thought a lot about the causes and I’m no further forward. I have no idea. As far as I’m aware there’s no history of this in my mother’s or my father’s side, or in my wife’s family either, and, and she had two brothers, so why should she have it and the two brothers not? I had one brother and I’ve got lots of cousins. My mother came from a family of ten and my father came from a family of seven and there’s none of this, none of my cousins or relations have been affected, nor was my brother so why me? I don’t know. I mean I’ve done all the sort of things that young men sort of, you know, played lots of sports, ridden motorbikes perhaps more quickly than was sensible and driven cars perhaps more quickly but it’s nothing that I can lay my finger on obviously. Being a goalkeeper you’ve got lots of knocks and bumps and this sort of thing but that’s a long time ago, so I haven’t got a clue.

I have a wheelchair which I use when necessary but I’m trying hard not to use a wheelchair. I want to walk as long as I can. The only real problem I have is with the Local Authority, they seem to be able to place the disabled bays in the most useless places and I’m fighting a battle with the Local Authority at the moment because the disabled bays are so far from the entrance door to the, to the sports centre that it’s, it’s ridiculous in my opinion. And there’s an area at the side which could be quite easily made into disabled bays and they just don’t seem to see the necessity and I say they look at me with, with a bland expression and they say it’s within government guidelines. I haven’t seen these guidelines. To me there’s only one guideline and that is to have the disabled bay as near the entrance as possible. But they just don’t seem to have any idea of who they consult about the positioning of them, don’t seem to know where they should be.

And, and to me that’s the, we have a situation where I go where the local library and the, the staff car park is all nearer the entrance than the disabled bays and I think this is absolutely horrendous and shows a, a complete lack of understanding. But with the aid of a good friend I’m, I’m fighting the problem and I will continue to do so as long as I can. Not for me alone, but there’s other people who go with me who are disabled and they have the same problem and they don’t seem to take into account your pride and the fact that you want to be independent. We don’t want to be pushed along in a wheelchair. That will come quick enough and I think that a, a good deal more could be done certainly by our Local Authority, the Borough Council.

I mean in my estimation there’s an area of land, which is nearer the, the, the entrance door, which could put at least six disabled bays on there and they’d be all nearer the entrance than the existing ones, and usually when I go to use one of these disabled bays, often there’s a mother and child parked in there and they’re not very co-operative.

Is there anything else about getting around that you’ve noticed is harder?

It’s just the sheer effort that’s required in, in my case I can only speak for myself and it, it would probably be easier for me if I went in a wheelchair but I’m determined to walk as long as I can. What I was fortunate enough to do I won an electric scooter and I sometimes use that to go down the street and it makes such a difference to be able to move and talk, you talk to people. If you’re in the car you tend to be isolated and you can’t often get parked where you need to be parked within striking distance of where you want to be, but the electric scooter makes a big difference.

But I, I just thought that the harder I worked, the harder I would get back to work because I’d never, I’d never had a day’s, I had been off sick you know, not frequently but occasionally with flu or something but I’d never had a day’s unemployment. I had been employed from the age of fifteen to fifty-four and never had been out of work. Never had a, one day unemployed which I was very proud of and, and I wanted to get back to work as soon as possible. We’d always been independent and it took a long time to come to terms with the idea that you, that you’d gone from being the strongest man on the squad to the weakest, and that’s very humiliating.

How do you come to terms with something like that? I’m sure that’s something that a lot of people have to struggle with.

Well I suppose it, it you have to adjust whether, whether you have difficulty adjusting, or it’s easy to adjust, some people are different. I found it very difficult because I’d always been very fit and very strong and without pinning medals on myself with the, with a dirty job to do, I took hold of it first. I think that if you want to lead people as I had done, you had to lead from the front rather than push someone else into the dirty end and then to suddenly find that people were having to do things for you is, is very hard to, to come to terms with. But you have to or you’ll drive yourself silly. When my garden’s untidy for instance I can walk past and avert my eyes. I know I cannot do it and I have a, obviously a gardener who comes and does it and, and does very well, but when you want to do a thing yourself and you cannot, that is very hard to, to live with. Especially when you’ve been used with having strength to spare, but you have to come to terms with it, the other way lies madness. And you can make your life and everybody else’s life a misery if you have a mind and you just have to grin and bear it you know? Or try, we have our down days but for the most part we, we just carry on as well as we can. I want to be independent, my family have their lives to lead but as I say without my sister-in-law and my brother-in-law, I’d be stuck.