Well, I’ve talked to my family. Nobody in my family ever had it that we know of so I’ve looked through that, you know, that side of it. I didn’t think, I just think it’s being unlucky really in that I’ve ended up with it but I couldn’t most people end up with something in their lifetime don’t they so I the way I look at it is it’s not going to kill me. Might make me a little bit slower and, you know, disable me in certain ways but I’m grateful that can still live my life very well so.

I asked him if Parkinson’s was hereditary. And there are two different views on this, but I think the main view is that that is possible. And we think that my father had Parkinson’s, but not absolutely certain. And one of his brothers was diagnosed with it just before he died. Well, he, I mean he was 82 when he died, so, but he was, he’d been diagnosed with it just. So I think there is a possibility that it’s something that I have inherited from my father’s side of the family.

Do you have any children?

Yes, I have a son and a daughter. And my daughter is so like me it just isn’t true and she worries to death about everything. And of course she’s, she’s obviously worried about it. But I’ve told her that she mustn’t worry about it because it doesn’t necessary, necessarily pass from father to daughter any more than it does father to son. And yet what I’ve found is, I don’t know how far your research has gone on this, but it seems to me there are more men that have it than, than there are women. I don’t know whether you’ve found that.

Yes, I think that is the case.

I mean I, obviously when we go to the meetings there are, there are females there with it, but the membership is, is predominantly men. So I don’t know what the reason for that is.

I think I was incubating this condition years ago. Because I think the incubation period can be anywhere between ten and fifteen years. But I can’t prove it, but I have got my, I firmly believe that it was due to misuse of pesticides as a young man which I was farming in those days and organophosphates were coming out and they were, we didn’t observe the, the instructions on the label. There was a new condition, the new solution to problems and sheep dips and fly dressings and we did abuse them and I think that’s probably what’s started off my Parkinson’s.

And it has been said hasn’t it that it could be environmental?

Yes. Yes. Yes. There are studies ongoing now. I mean I can’t prove anything at all. It is just I have this feeling in my bones that that’s what started it. There is no history of it in my family at all. So where it has come from I don’t know. You do ask yourself, Why me

One thing that I did find though, which was quite helpful, was that I’ve actually researched how I might have come about getting it in the first place. And it’s fairly certain in my case that it’s organophosphate poisoning from when I was courting and I first got married in the 60s and 70s. People, I come from Manchester and I’ve been a city dweller. My husband had long slow exposure to organophosphates which were in common use in every area of agriculture, we had stock. There’s no history of Parkinson’s or anything like it in either side of my family going back as far as I can trace, no shaking palsy, no, nothing like it at all. And I’ve been doing family tree research, as you do when you get to a certain age, and there’s no history of anything like it anywhere in the family so I’m convinced that that is the cause of it in my case. But I understand that there are debates about the genetics and the propensity and so on.

Never thought about it, no because it’s happened, there’s no going back. There’s no point worrying about what it might have been. My wife has theories like it was glandular fever, or pesticides, because we stayed with our friends once and they had woodworm. And they had painted all the wood with a chemical and we were sleeping in that room. But then my wife hasn’t got Parkinson’s so I don’t believe that.

I don’t worry about what’s caused it. I just think what would, what sort of cure would I like. If I could be cured and stop now that would almost be satisfactory. If I could take it back a year or two, I’d be quite happy with that, so it all depends whether the cures can stop it, roll it back or prevent it.

I had a father who had a very high anxiety levels and people with Parkinson’s disease often do have that, not helped by the medication which all have the side-effects of anxiety too. And I had had glandular fever very badly just before I went to university so I had to do my A-levels at home in bed so my immune system was down when I went to university. And while I was at university in Durham there was a lot of hoo-ha about the chemical waste from Sellafield the nuclear plant. So the reason I say this is that because when I was at Durham there was only seventeen of us. We were the first year ever to do a sociology degree there and out of seventeen of us four of us have early onset Parkinson’s disease which is a pretty high incidence when you consider the number overall of people with early onset Parkinson’s disease in the country. So maybe there was something around at that time, you know, and having my immune system weak the chemicals affected me, I don’t know but that gave me something to rationalise it with.

The interesting thing about the fact that it came near my daughter’s accident was that that actually produced what I think happens with other Parkinson’s patients which is that it’s not that uncommon for there to be a life event which seems to be very close and possibly to cause or get associated with the onset of Parkinson’s, particularly for younger onset people.

And I think one of the things we had to cope with was finding out about that. Finding out whether that was true and when I read, I remember reading all this stuff about well, actually Parkinson’s can be latent for ten years until you see the first symptom, and I think his consultant said that firmly. And then you read about what actually might be happening that, you know, you’d been magnificently balancing your neurotransmitters and then something happens which doesn’t just cause the disease, but means that you can’t do the balancing act anymore. And than kind of made sense but the important thing was for us as a family to really believe that it wasn’t daughter’s accident which had caused father’s intractable illness.

And that was quite tricky because sometimes people, my other daughter might say, you know, And and everything was all right until Or something that sounded like that and it was really important to deal with that and not make that part of the problem.

To be quite honest a lot of the timewhen I was young I used to ride in steeple chases and I had a lot of falls. And for a long time I convinced myself that if I had any problems in that way they were caused by a heavy fall on the head and I am not entirely certain that that is not true. It used to be called being punch drunk. You can’t be certain and certainly when one was a twenty-one year old amateur jockey riding whatever one could take you were slightly inclined to brush the side effects under the carpet for fear that anyone might discover. So you would expect to have got the shakes through too many cigarettes or too many gin and tonics. But I don’t think it was. In the start, there may well have been some minor brain damage.

But now over the first six months one of the things I think a lot of people do is is try and look back and see where it started. Why did I get Parkinson’s? And what caused it and, as we know, there are there could be many causes of Parkinson’s and none of them are quite clear. But it some of the things I’ve read led me to believe that about five or six years previous to being diagnosed I’ve had a serious kidney and prostate infection which took a long time to clear up and I was on very high strength anti-biotics.

And there has been some links between anti-biotics and Parkinson’s due to toxin release in the death of bacterial cells maybe so I hung on to that as a possibility but whether or not that’s actually true, you know, remains to be seen and and in the end of the day, it doesn’t really matter what caused it. I’ve got it now and that and that’s that.

The question shouldn’t be Why did I get Parkinson’s Disease The question should be, Why haven’t you got it And it may be the case that everybody gets Parkinson’s disease so the question then arises not as why do some people get it. Some people don’t. The question should be why do some people get it sooner than other people. In effect you live long enough you will get it.