They explained roughly what was going on and that they would have to put me into the Intensive Care Unit and that subsequently, sorry, that’s slightly wrong, they’d already put me into the Intensive Care Unit. She [wife] had not been contacted as I’d been advised that she had been. When she arrived, we had a discussion, and I gave her my watch and my wedding ring for safe keeping, so that in the event that I didn’t survive, because it was quite serious, she would have them. We discussed as much as we could the issues that had occurred.

And I was opposite a lady of about 75 years of age in Intensive Care, who also had pneumonia, and she had obviously had some form of difficulties. And subsequently she managed to survive her treatment and had come out of it in such a way that she seemed to be on an overhead ventilator, from my recollection. And I said to my wife, “Tomorrow, when you come back in, I’m going to look like that.” Now that’s not necessarily the case, but that’s how matters actually felt.

Subsequently I was informed that I would be sedated, which I can recall. I can recall that I was told that I would have to lay very still to have a long needle, for want of a better term, inserted into one of my veins in my neck. And I expressed concern at that point in time because they advised me that I had to stay still for ten minutes, and I couldn’t actually stay still without coughing for about thirty seconds. They obviously sedated me at that point in time, and inserted the needle. And that is the last I can really recall for something like twelve to fourteen days.

They put me to sleep for nine days. Through that night I deteriorated very rapidly. I developed septicaemia and it was a very close call for a number of days. My parents were in New Zealand and they were called back. My sister came up. My parents-in-law had to come down to look after our daughter who was sixteen months old at the time and everybody thought I was going to die.

And it remained that way for I think probably a good sort of six or seven days while they threw every single antibiotic they had in the cupboard at me. And desperately tried to work out what it was that was wrong with me because obviously when you go in and present like that, they don’t know what it is specifically that you’ve got wrong with you. And in the end they worked out that it was a fairly common strain of pneumonia that I just had a very bad severe reaction to. But I know none of, you know I knew none of all this obviously. And I was just sort of out for the count.

I was really experiencing difficulty breathing then. It was [demonstrates] like that. And anyway I sat down in the clinic. And they were painting the clinic and the fumes were terrible, and that just made everything worse. And my husband got up and said to the nurse, you know, “She really, she is asthmatic as well.” So the nurse said, “Oh, right, I’ll get her to see the doctor next.” So indeed I was taken in to see the doctor and he had a look down my throat and he said, “I’ve got to put a nasogastric tube down your nose into the back of your throat, and have a look at it and take some photographs.

And he did take photographs and he showed them to me and he said, “That’s your throat.” He said, “This, that little black dot there, that’s your airway.” He said, “This is closing up. I think you’ve got epiglottitis. I need to speak to my consultant.” So he went and spoke to his consultant;

But it was obviously far worse than that and it was obviously far more overwhelming. And I mean subsequently I know that I had two things. I had this infection of the throat, which had closed up my airway, but I had sepsis as well. And my bloodstream and my organs were being affected by this enormous infection that I had in my bloodstream. But I didn’t feel ill in what I would have thought that I would have felt [laughs]. I didn’t have any pain, I didn’t feel any pain. I didn’t feel ill as such.

All throughout my time in Recovery my vision was coming and going, but my hearing was very acute. I was an Intensive Care nurse, I knew what they were talking about. I could hear them saying what my blood pressure was, that it was very low. And at different times throughout I can remember saying, telling, trying to tell them what to do, give me some fluids and get my blood pressure up and there was lots of activity in the room. I could hear drawers being opened and closed and I could hear them looking for things, and I could hear them saying that my oxygen levels were low and my blood pressure was low, that it wouldn’t come up. I knew they were putting various lines and drips into me, and I was counting all the fluids that were going in and totalling it all up. So I knew I’d had a few litres of fluid and my blood pressure was still low.

Then I remember the Consultant coming down from Intensive Care who was on call and I knew who it was, I couldn’t see him, but I heard his voice so I knew which Consultant it was and I heard him on the telephone asking for another Consultant to come down. They didn’t even realise that it was me that they were coming to see, when the other Consultant arrived I could see him. My vision had come back at that point, so I could see him and I just remember his face, he was just in total shock and I could see from peoples faces in the room that things were getting worse.

At one point I just could not breathe, I could feel my lungs filling up with fluid and I remember panicking at that stage. Even though people were trying to reassure me all the time, I knew that things were getting worse. I remember saying to the Consultant Obstetrician at one point, “Have I got septic shock?” And he said, “No, no, no, everythings fine.”

And I thought, “Oh, theres an asthma attack coming on.” So I went straight to the wardrobe, I put my trousers on apparently, I went to the wardrobe, put on a dressing gown and headed for the front door, you know, to phone for the ambulance and be outside ready for the ambulance. And that is the last I remember.

I do not remember making the telephone call. I must have made it but the memory, call register on the mobile phone doesn’t come up with 999 calls, when I checked it didn’t come up. I do not remember the ambulance arriving but I’ve been told by Resuscitation that I was outside ready for it. I cannot tell you whether I walked on to the ambulance or whether I was carried on.

I do not remember arriving at the hospital. I’m told that the ambulance crew, when they first arrived, were not particularly concerned, but when I had arrived in hospital I had actually stopped breathing. So the next thing I actually remember, I mean we were talking about, this was 3 o’clock on a Tuesday morning, the next thing I remember was 5 o’clock on Friday morning, when I came round in Intensive Care. And I remember the green-uniformed nurse standing above me.

Basically it was the third of November two thousand and one, I’d gone outside just to pop down and get a paper and one of the neighbours noticed that I was looking a bit pale and I was having problems actually breathing. I went over to my Mum and Dad’s and they spoke to the doctor’s, went to the doctor’s and that’s when they called me an ambulance and I went to A and E at the hospital, thinking well I can’t see what the problem is which, with the shortness of breath. I did have pain in my stomach as well and basically they all, must have been four, five doctor’s around me, which was very confusing at the time and they then just transferred me to a normal ward.

And then I think I actually recall when I was on the trolley being taken to Intensive Care, that I was going there, but again that could be just my memory playing tricks. And then the next thing I remember is actually coming round about thirty odd days into my stay, being told that I was in Intensive Care. That was the actual first time but later on in February two thousand and two I went, I’d already been transferred to another hospital by then. I had more idea that I was going to Intensive Care because I’d been transferred up there for an operation;

The whole period it was from, as I say, from November the third straight through to the next year to June.

For the operation;

Yeah well I was, as I say, the first hospital I spent two and a half months until I got transferred up to the second hospital a month before I had the operation and then three months in the ward. So the actual overall stay was seven and a half months.

I then remember being very, very poorly. And I must have been in Intensive Care then, but I don’t remember how I got there. I’ve been told since that, I was told that I was going to Intensive Care and that they was going to put me through a drug-induced coma. But I don’t remember being told that. Although I did know something of it, because as I came to sometimes I had this concept that my family had been told that I would have no memory of what was going on. I thought I was going in for daily treatments and that my family had been told to remind me, because I wouldn’t remember. So something had been said to me, but I didn’t really remember it in any detail.

They did explain very well then, once I was round properly. The nurses and the doctors came to see me and explained exactly what had happened, what had gone wrong with the original operation, why I’d ended up in Intensive Care, that my lungs had collapsed and that’s why I was on a ventilator.

We went for the pre-assessment and we asked different questions. The wife asked questions about the anaesthetist and all this. And I asked, “What is the stay in the hospital?” And they said, “Anything from five to ten days.” And he said, “But, now and again, we do have people that stay in a lot longer because of different, things go wrong. And I turned around to her and I said, “And that’ll be me”, just joking. So I left.

We went home, got the call, went in the ward on the Sunday night. Got up Monday morning, just pottered about. Went down, I think about 2 oclock in the afternoon and, as I said, I don’t remember anything until I woke up in ICU, the following day, what time of day, I do not know.

And they said that you are going back to the ward, which they did. And I remember, well I don’t remember but I arrived at the ward. Now whether it was a Tuesday or the Wednesday, I’m still not sure. But anyhow, I got back to the ward about midday, and in the afternoon I wanted to go to the toilet, which I went because they took me in a wheelchair. I was in there for a rather long time. I don’t remember pulling the cord, but I know then that two or three of them come in and asked if I was all right. And by that time I was not. And I just do not know what happened after that.

So therefore I went into hospital on the 19th of January and I was operated on the 20th. And the surgeon managed to remove all of the lump because at first they thought I’d have to have radiotherapy but the surgeon was able to do it all in one operation. So that was alright.

So like the operation was the 20th of January but on the 31st of January the surgeon came round and said I’d be able to go home in a couple of days. And I took myself off to have a shower and shampoo and, while I was in there, I suddenly felt very breathless and I had to pull the cord and I managed to open the door and shout “Wheelchair, oxygen”. And I can’t remember anything after that, but in fact I had written that in my diary but that’s what I said.

I was then transferred to the Intensive Care Unit in [hospital name]. And then eventually I was transferred to [hospital name] on the 19th of February. I was transferred to a medical ward on the 15th of March and then eventually transferred to [hospital name] which was the rehab on the 31st of March.

And we went in and I had my regional injections and I was awake, laying on the table to have my baby delivered.

So half way through I realised I couldn’t breathe properly so I said to the anaesthetist, “I’m finding it difficult to breathe.” So she was like, “ok” and then she gave me an oxygen mask to help me breathe. By this time my son had been delivered, no problems delivering him and I think the nurse had him in the corner. I could see him getting wiped down and everything. My husband was over there and they were still getting on with probably trying to, I thought, trying to stitch me up and get me off the couch or whatever. So, and then I could hear my son crying. They showed me my son when they delivered him and he was crying and he looked well and he was big, 7lbs 9oz.

And so, as I said, I said to the anaesthetist, “I can’t, I’m finding it difficult to breathe.” There must have been a few, by this time I was losing a lot of blood because they couldn’t stop my bleeding so there must have been a few faces sort of thinking, were in trouble here, you know were can’t stop her bleeding.

Thursday morning the consultant, the ITU consultant and the consultant that done the operation and another consultant who’s also an obstetric gynaecologist came up to me and they began to tell me what happened. So she began to explain that what had happened was that I’d had a placenta accreta which they didn’t even know. I’d had quite a lot of scans because of complications I had because of sickness and him being breached but they didn’t pick up that that was happening. And she said that’s quite normal. Sometimes you know, it will take a very good technician to pick up such a thing and it can be missed.

And basically from what I’ve been told and I was on the approach road to the village of which obviously I travelled daily. I mean I know the road like the back of my hand and, evidently, I was following three vehicles and I’ve always maintained that I would only have ever overtaken those three vehicles if they were going too slow or they were all over the road and they were better behind me rather than in front of me. It was, on recollection, it was a silly thing to do only because of what’s happened to me. Under normal circumstances I would have done it.

I would have got away with it but because of what happened, it was a stupid thing to do. I was always a competent rider. I always have been a competent driver. I’ve respected other road users and I find it very difficult to put myself or recollect being in the position that I overtook those three vehicles. There was nothing wrong in overtaking the vehicles. I understand they were travelling at about 45 miles an hour and I overtook keeping within the speed limit according to the witnesses. I overtook at about 55, 60 miles an hour.

I’d got up the, from what I can recollect because I got in front of the lead vehicle and a young lad on a scooter decided to do a U-turn in my path and I had, there was no where to go. There was no distance between him and the car in front for me to avoid him. I just ploughed straight into him.

I have no recollection of the accident. I understand there was a helicopter hovering above. Paramedics were there. Evidently two people who were, I presume in the vehicles, lifted the bike from me and in doing so I presume they extracted the cycle stand from the back of my ankle.

And, like I say, I have no recollection of the accident, only the pain and then punishment afterwards.

I remember it very vividly. I came home and opened the front door and came into the kitchen. And I was expecting [my husband] to be in the garden because I’d left him chopping wood. And saw him lying on his back on the patio in a very relaxed pose. And it was about quarter past two and I thought, my initial reaction was, oh, hed fallen asleep after having lunch. But the more I looked at the scene, in fact I tapped on the window to try and get his attention and nothing happened. And I continued to look at this sort of, this sight and realised of course there was something that didn’t make sense.

It was cloudy, it was cold, and there was a hose that was running. And I suddenly realised from the colour of his clothing that he was completely drenched. And then I saw the ladder on the side, by his side. And I immediately put two and two together and realised and rushed outside. And then fortunately there was no ill effect of what I then did. Because I mean, like a lot of people, I’ve done a St John’s Ambulance course, and you know what to do as first aid. But when you see your husband lying there, all that goes out of your head and so you immediately rush there. And then, you know, I immediately picked him up, you know, sort of off his back and cradled him. And of course that’s the last thing I should have done.

Thankfully there was no, you know, permanent damage from that at all and it didn’t have an impact on his rehabilitation. And of course then immediately rang the ambulance, who were here within ten to twelve minutes. And we were very fortunate.

Well it is sheer unfortunates that I ended up like this really because until now I’d never been ill in my life in fact. And at the end of November I picked up my daughter’s two little dogs as I did every day. I took them out. Took them down the park. Picked up a stick for one of them to run after but he jumped up to grab the stick and his tooth just nicked my knuckle. Not a bite, it was just, you know, it was just a knick really and I thought nothing more of it really. I went up to the doctors the next day just to check that my tetanus was up to date, which it was. But then, within three days, I was in Intensive Care where I spent seventeen days and apparently was very poorly. My wife and children were told that I had less than 30% chance of surviving.