No, I mean, I’ve very much coming to terms… I’ve come to terms with it, I’m living with it, it’s not… it’s just a path that many people have to take. I mean, I’m not unique and although I feel a bit sorry for myself now and again, but here I went from a position of going to hospital after accidents or because of kidney stones, taking no medication except related to them, to having fifteen things on a repeat prescription. All caused by the cancer, not specifically caused by the cancer but caused by the treatment for the cancer.
Yeah, the domino effect all the way?
It’s the continuing grief from the treatment that people tend to forget. They think, oh no, they’ve cut the cancer out of him, they’ve given him chemotherapy, that’ll be him, fine, and it’s not true. The number of people who must be like me and have constant and continuing problems caused by treatment for cancer…
Yeah, physical consequences and the emotional consequences as well… yeah.
Yeah, it must be a huge number, or a high number of people.
But you have to be… I’m very aware that all my medical problems now can be directly related back to the cancer treatment.
And I must not be unique in that sense.
And do you ever… would you every say you felt fit and well these days or…?
No. So you really feel like you’re living with the legacy of the illness.
I would always say I’ve never felt well for years, because I don’t feel well all the time.
And that’s a real contrast to how you were before.
But it’s not something that I go on and on about. You come here to visit me today after over the last few weeks I’ve had a whole barrage of blood tests indicating things that are high and low, and I’ve had a whole load of symptoms which have worsened. I’m very sore in my bones and can’t sleep. I have serious cramps in my leg. I’m tired, depressed. I feel a bit depressed because I know when…
You recognise that feeling now after…
So I had that feeling that this depression is returning, and they tell me I have low calcium. One day, the next time I have low phosphate, and I’m thinking, well, these symptoms can all be related to that, because I don’t hang about, I do some reading up.