So in a two week period you would have five or six trips up to the clinic?

Yes.

And how do you manage to juggle that with work and things like that?

It is very difficult [laughs]. The first time it worked out perfectly and I wasn’t working on the days that I needed to go, whereas this time, it has just been a complete nightmare. I was working every day that I was meant to go. And because I am a nurse as well, then it is not you can even say, Oh I will come in a bit later Because it is just not possible. So it’s a case of having to swap shifts round which is always difficult because people have plans, and it depends what hours you are working as well. So I have found that really, really difficult at the time. But literally from the point of view of not being able to swap shifts rather than anything else. But luckily the clinic are really, really good and they do try and be flexible. So that does help.

He is very laid back and he tends to cope with things in his own little way and he doesn’t tend to talk about things much, but that is the way he is and that is the way that he handles things, whereas I much prefer to talk about things and I find like one web site is really, really good and I have met quite a few people through it. I have found it helpful talking to other women in my situation. Because it does feel really lonely otherwise. You feel like you are the only person going through it and knowing that there is other people who are like having exactly the same feelings as you, really does help. And a couple of them, we meet on a regular basis because we live nearby, so that is quite nice.

We have tried acupuncture and tried hypnosis as well to see if that helps. So far it hasn’t done. But I don’t know. I just think if you know there is a reason then, even though sometimes it might make it harder to conceive because you are totally reliant on treatment, whereas like I know that at least I have got a challenge each month that I might get pregnant. But it is just likegoes further down the line and you think oh there is less chance of it happening naturally. I do sort of like now feel dependent on treatment.

So in a two week period you would have five or six trips up to the clinic?

Yes.

And how do you manage to juggle that with work and things like that?

It is very difficult [laughs]. The first time it worked out perfectly and I wasn’t working on the days that I needed to go, whereas this time, it has just been a complete nightmare. I was working every day that I was meant to go. And because I am a nurse as well, then it is not you can even say, Oh I will come in a bit later Because it is just not possible. So it’s a case of having to swap shifts round which is always difficult because people have plans, and it depends what hours you are working as well. So I have found that really, really difficult at the time. But literally from the point of view of not being able to swap shifts rather than anything else. But luckily the clinic are really, really good and they do try and be flexible. So that does help.

Awful. I don’t know the problem is like they advise you to take it easy and to relax, but I am not very good at that. I like to be doing things and a lot of people that I have spoken to do take two weeks off work. But that is just not – I am just not able to do it, because I just can’t take leave at short notice and unless you take sick leave which I can’t do, because I am not sick. So, yes I just have to continue working around it. And that makes it difficult. Because at work I have to do lifting and things. So you have to be careful from that point of view and because a lot of my colleagues don’t know.

Very surprised. I didn’t realise how hard it was going to be physically. Like the side effects of the drugs. The fact that they make you feel so emotional and tired and like with the first cycle of treatment I am just about absolutely exhausted and I just really put it down to having to go over the clinic sort of like one day I would be doing like a fourteen hour day at work and the next morning I would be having to get up early then to go the clinic and then I would be doing another fourteen hour day. And I was doing that for about a week and so I really put it down to that. Whereas this time I sort of like had a slightly easy work schedules but even still I have been absolutely exhausted. And it is actually one of the side effects of the drugs. You have to make yourself do things. Like you have to think I really need to be doing something, but all you want to do is lie down and go to sleep. Like in the evenings, like, I am just fast asleep on the settee and then go off to bed and sleep and yes, like the side effects aren’t particularly pleasant and they do make you emotional. And like I have been quite lucky in that because I am on a lower dose of the drugs because of the treatment then in some ways that makes it easy whereas I know for IVF then you have a much higher dose. So I hate to think what the side effects are going to be like if I ever have to go that far.

I think sometimes the online support is good because there is always somebody who you can talk to generally and you get to meet a lot more people. Whereas like locally there aren’t that many people who are on this site. There is only just like a few of us like within Yorkshire. But like a few of us do meet up and that is quite nice. It is a good excuse to have lunch as well [laughs]. But it is nice having that personal support as well. But it is also quite but we are not always necessarily in the same situation. So sometimes it can be quite hard to understand what somebody else is going through when you are not in exactly the same place. Whereas at least on the site then there are people in the same situation as you. So even though they might live on the other side of the country then you can still have that contact with them. Which I have found really, really good.

I suppose there are some choices. It is like initially, we when we were seen at the first clinic, and they suggested going on Clomiphene, just like a normal tablet which you take each month just for a few days. And so initially was just to take that for six months, and if that hadn’t worked then we would progress on to IUI. But then when we changed clinics, they were saying, well they haven’t really found Clomiphene that useful for unexplained infertility. They did say like we could carry on with that if we wanted to, but they were suggesting IUI instead. So and then when we saw the consultant at the local hospital then he was saying he thought that Clomiphene was a better option. So it was just made us feel like we were going back to where we were to begin with. And we tried that for a couple of months and it didn’t work, so we just decided to go ahead with the treatment. And, yet, it is so much cheaper you are talking about the price of a prescription rather than something like £900 so there is a big difference in the price. But yes, the problem is there isn’t enough research done so you don’t know exactly how successful treatment is to compare the two of them. Because of course they have always been done with people like with different problems and like different age groups and things so you can never really do a direct comparison between the two. So we did find that really difficult and I don’t know, we are both people who like answers to problems and like things to be straightforward and there is no easy answer to it and you just have to go with what you feel is right. And at the time we just decided that we felt it was right to continue with the treatment plan that we had got, rather than going back to may be where we had been at the beginning. Because we decided it was a step backwards rather than a step forward. And yes, it might have saved us money but you don’t know.