I mean like I’ve said earlier, when I was growing up, up to I became 18, I sor… I didn’t think I could do stuff on my own, and relied too much on my mum, and it got everyone else down and I, I the thing is, having this thing you also don’t know if you’ve hurt yourself like. I mean when I fall, I wouldn’t know if I’ve broken anything, because I don’t feel pain. That is part of it, you don’t feel pain so you wouldn’t know if, I suppose you actually would know if you did say break a leg, because that wouldn’t really hurt even someone like me, because I suffer from pain and ..
But I think the main hard thing for me has been my eyesight, especially in the last few years. I mean up till probably about five years ago, I could play pool and do things like that, but now I can’t I realise, my eyesight is not as good as it was, and I can’t seem to play much sport any more which is a big shame because I’m a big fan of sport and I used I used to play pool. I used to have a pool table when I was younger. I used to play pool and snooker and yes, but now I don’t seem to do much of that anymore. So that’s a bit of a shame. Any sort of sport, I do know I was going to the gym twice a week so… [laughs]. So that’s, it’s pretty you try not to let the bad things get you down as much.
You try and do things to enjoy so stop you thinking about the horrible stuff, the things you don’t want to talk about and things you…. I don’t want to, there’s things from my past that I don’t want to talk about that are a bit dark and may be, things I don’t like looking back, and we used to live in [place name] and, and, which is about five minutes away from here, and when I’m in a cab and I go down there, I close my eyes so I don’t have to see it, and it’s, it’s….
I think I started feeling more happy with my life when I went to college in [county]. Back in ‘89. And that is when, alright there was a lot of people there on site to help you if you had problems and teaching you things like mobility, and life skills and things like that, and, but you, once you’re done past the mobility routes you can do what you wanted to do with your friends. And because I think there was a lot of other people there who... There were other people who were blind and partially sighted. So we were all there to help each other, and that was the best thing about college is meeting my best friend, who I’m still friends with now so. I mean he is totally blind, so, we help each other out and …
And so, yes, I mean I try and do as much, many things as other people do, but of course there are some drawbacks sort of things, I can’t do. So you, you, you put up, you have to put up with it. Those are the cards you’ve been dealt, so [laughs]. But things could be much worse so… I don’t know what else to say about.