When you don’t see yourself as attractive it’s kind of hard, because if you don’t see yourself as attractive they won’t see you as attractive, which is why it’s called the self confidence kind of thing, ‘cos if you’ve got self confidence and you’re just sort of like, “Wow I look really good tonight” then I’ll get that kind of message out to everyone else, and so there’s bound to be someone. And so it’s quite important - I wish it wasn’t - but it’s important to young people because it’s so commercialised and it’s so in your face really, ‘cos it’s everywhere you see people but there’s, it gives you hope in some ways, ‘cos you think so well there’s bound to be someone. But it’s just the fact that you see people who you classify as attractive going through boyfriends or girlfriends at a rate of like knots, so that’s quite depressing, because when you can’t even get one, and they’re going, and they’re like, if their relationship lasts a week, you’re just like, “Wow, oh my goodness you’re a Lord.” Oh, a couple of my friends are like that.
So do you think that you can be a bigger size and still be beautiful or attractive?
Yeah.You can. I think it’s all down to like your mental, your mental picture of yourself really because, again, going back to this friend who has an awful lot going on in her life, but she prides herself on looking - she cakes herself with make up - but it makes her feel beautiful. And if you feel beautiful, people will see you as beautiful, and she wears the most outrageous clothes and she’s so bubbly and it’s lovely, and that’s so, that’s such an attractive thing to have. But it’s when you’re like, “Oh I feel so bad and ugly today.” That, that’s when you become really bad, and so size isn’t the thing, it’s more the mental, mental, what you, what you, it’s the way you act, if you act like all closed and in a corner and not socialising, then I mean attractive is someone who is the life and soul of the party, dancing in the middle, having a good laugh, and so it, yeah it does all come down to mental, ‘cos I mean you can lose weight as much as you want, but no matter how much weight you lose you will still have that mental, mental image of you being bigger than everyone else, no matter how much you lose, even if you’re the same size as them, if you’ve been bigger than them, you know how it feels and it’s so hard to like shed that mental image.